MY PRIDE...MY SHAME.

"A man's meat... another's poison"

Whoever said this is very smart and also very correct. I mean the dog meat may settle very well in my stomach because i'm calabar ( pple think we eat dogs... wherever they get that from, i have no idea) but in Chike's stomach, it will definately not settle ( that is if it even makes it into his mouth). What is Eke ranting about?... all in due time my friends.

For a very long time, African women have been known for their curvatous body... i mean the full breast, beautiful waistline, well rounded bum and noticeable hips. Our men have been surrounded by these for so long that it has become a turn on for them and they are always proud to show off their gorgeous wives. The same goes for the white men who like their women slender with moderate body parts. However, with the evolving society, these bodies have been threatened. I mean, pple think that beyonce, J-lo and Salma Hayek etc. have got the perfect body and so u see us black women gyming and getting liposuction to reduce their bodies to a moderate size while the white women are going for surgeries to get breast and bum implants. Crazy but true.

Three years ago when i lived in this country, you could never catch me in pants and short T shirt without a coat during the daytime. I was so embarrased by the size of my bum and hips. I even joined a slimming club as well as gyming to get rid of some if not all of my "assets" but these babies aint going no where ( stuck on me). When i returned to nigeria, i discovered that these assets of mine were a big hit with our Men and i stopped hiding them under layers of clothes. I was proud to strut my stuff and wriggle my waist at every chance i got ( afterall, i am a beautiful african woman). Hoewever, returning back to the United Kingdom has brought out the insecurities i used to have before. For example, the other day, i wanted to go out and i wore this pretty low waist pair of jeans i just got and beautiful blouse that stopped on my waist. As i looked at my reflection in the hall way mirror, all i could think of was "dang! my bum is BIG!" Before i knew it, i was on my way back to the house to get a jacket. Sad init...

The Uk has been very cold, especially scotland. Scotland is a very beautiful country and i cant beleive i never visited when i was leaving in the UK. Oh well, i'm here for at least a year and so i will get to see the places i never did. I am currently in Aberdeen and will be going back to school on tuesday because monday is a bank holiday. I havent seen Bimpe or Ebele yet but i'm hoping to see Ebele tomorrow.

I have so much missed Bigbrother but not to worry, the website always keeps me up to date. Biggie threw a party for the housemates on friday. There was a lot of "guzzles" and Lerato peed her bed! She is so lucky that no one else in the house knows "our little secret". I must say that the whole thing has humbled her. Bertha wanted to take her relationship with Kwaku to another level and so dressed sexily to meet him. Needless to say, the guy refused the advances because he was asleep and there was nothing Bertha could do about that ( i think he was pretending).

Ok pple, i gotta go. Have a nice weekend ahead and God bless y'all.

Ciao!