WHITE CHRISTMAS

' I am dreaming of a white christmas... may your days be merry and bright and may all your christmases be white'

A lot of you would remember this song and some of you probably havent heard the song. This song is the one song that actually keeps christmas alive in me. Why? If most of you are 'normal' as i am, you would realise that you lost that tingly christmas feeling a long time ago. As a young girl, i always looked forward to the christmas season because 1.School's out, 2. Two new dresses (one for christmas and one for new year...came with shoes as well), 3. Christmas goat and chicken, (back then it was a luxury) 4. Holiday TV etc. However, over the years as i grew older, i discovered all these things didnt fascinate me anymore. I mean i buy clothes and shoes every other day, goat meat and chicken is no longer a luxury ( i can eat it anytime i want...infact, it is part of my staple diet), school's out but you still gotta read for exams in january and tv programmes and stations (dont know about LTV tho') have improved since i was a little girl which means i watch tv every now and then. Some of you who are working know that you dont actually get time off to spend christmas. You stop work on the 24th and resume on the 27th... what sort of life is that? I will say that the whole time i was working in IPML, i didnt spend new year with my family and that is because they stay in Uyo and i had to be back in Lagos before the 27th and it was hectic and dangerous ( Oh well, that is a phase in my live that i do not want to re-live anymore). When i listen to the song above, i close my eyes and imagine i'm this little girl without any care in the world, in a new dress, singing christmas carol in church, eating rice with chicken and just having a ball... wake up and get back to work!

So i have been feeling better after the suicidal week i had (two weeks ago). I have learnt to accept that some things happen for a reason and you just have to pray and ask God to show you how you can overcome that situation and move on. I have also learnt that we cannot actually control the way we want our lives to turn out so i have handed my life to God so he can contyrol it for me. I want to thank some of you who actually sent an email because you were concerned ( i really appreciate). I pray God will bless you and grant your heart's desire... Amen.

The past week was very interesting. First of all, i had an assignment that was due on friday and i had to stay up all night to do it. Had two cups of cofee and by the next day, i was feeling so sick but i still had to go to the library to finish it up and by the time i got home, i was so knackered and went straight to bed! what a day! I'm a bit better this week but i still have an assignment from my cute Statistrics lecturer that i have to give in on friday. It's unfortunate that it is assessed as a pass or fail because i'm trying to prove a theory that a lecturer's looks can affect the performance of a student... oh well. Still, i'm looking forward to doing the assignment.

Church was really nice yesterday. The choir is really improving. I led praise and worship and was really impressed with our performance in the special number. God is really working wonders in our midst and this is great. I cant wait for saturday when we will have another practice and sunday when the Lord will use us to bless His people. I also cant wait for the holidays as i'll be going to London to spend christmas with my family...cool init? there is so much to look forward to in this life so i am going to be happy and continue to praise God because of his love for me.

Ok people, i gotta go. Skills class beckons. Have a really good day and love live because it is precious. I love you all and i'm happy you are my friends ( hope you feel the same way).

Ciao!